Friday, April 18, 2014

Day 19 Part One

I had using dreams last night. A rehab counselor once told me that having using dreams means we are purging the drugs from our minds. I am not sure if this is true. I'd love to find out more about that. The effect they have on me is that I seem to feel sad when I wake.

My first order of business was to see Dr. D. He asked me yesterday to come in for an extra session of hypnosis since I have been a bit off track the last few days.

Essentially this is where I wear blinking glasses, headphones, and he talks me into a conscious level. Then he can say things like, "I am realizing how much I want to be free of opiates", or "I will take good care of myself."

I am sorry that my explanation does it NO justice. What I can say is that it works. I highly recommend doing some research on this topic. Hypnosis for addiction, quitting smoking, weight loss, or whatever. Something about reconstructing our feelings and words to ourselves when our brain is at a consciousness in which it can be effected.

I know my  Dr. has a success rate of above over 95% among thousands of patients.

Anyways, Day 19 started sad but took a hard right turn. I am still really struggling with my thoughts, depression, headaches, and anxiety, but I plan to go for a walk and spend a little time with family. I also plan to listen to the CD he burned for me from our session. I figure I have nothing to lose. I haven't taken my Suboxone yet. I plan to put it off as long as I can today. I am quite sure that is effecting my mood as well.

It's all about staying clean from street drugs another day, and continuing my taper off Suboxone.


  1. Oh, the old using dream experience.....I have had them that were so real that once I woke up from it, I would actually count my money! They are just that real sometimes.
    I have also been told about the brain purge. I have been told that when I have them it indicates that I am not doing something that I should be doing. Also that the dreams I would have are related in direct proportion to the amount and strength of junk I was using. I have heard many, many reasons why and how to avoid them over the years, I believe everyone is different.
    My Experience: It just takes time. Don't take yourself so seriously.The longer I am clean, the better these weird things, symptoms get.
    Thanks for posting.

  2. Lol you have given me quite a few things to think about when it comes to me dreams! Wow.
    So hard not to take it seriously but I know that you are right. Fear that this isn't my first attempt but hopefully my last does wack things to my mind.
    I really appreciate the comments!